What This is Becoming
A look at how this podcast is evolving, how I'm evolving, and how it's helping me understand my purpose
As I tried scripting a podcast episode this week, I found myself struggling to clarify its message. Perhaps not uncoincidentally, the topic was how to operate from a place of ease. š
When I have that struggling feelingāthe feeling of: something doesnāt feel rightāIām learning to listen to it rather than push through it. A previous version of me wouldāve fought that feeling and forced the episode to work.
Now, Iām taking that feeling as a signal to check in with myself.
Whatās this telling me?
Whatās become clear is that, with the podcast, Iām in a moment of transition here. Itās a transition that holds the promise of a new chapter and the uneasiness of it all playing out live and in public.
Certainly I could just let it play out silently in the background and never call attention to it. But Iām thinking that sharing whatās going on may give you insight into your own courage or your own creative pursuit.
So hereās whatās happening.
Whatās working and not working
Iāve experimented with the podcast for a few months, and now Iām looking more closely at whether itās having the impact I desire.
Itās difficult to measure, but I have clues about how itās connected to folks:
The podcast has had 1,000+ downloads since I started it
Iāve had a handful of people reach out wanting to work with me because of what Iāve shared
A former colleague texted me saying Iām the āEzra Klein of Courageā lol
I appreciate all of those thingsātheyāre little signposts that Iām onto somethingāand yet Iām aware thereās quite a bit that isnāt working:
My topics cover everything from fear to curiosity to careers, and even to me at times itās not 100% clear how they all connect
Iāve done a bunch of āHow Toā episodes that have been fun to craft, but personally Iām craving more variety in terms of format
My subscriber growth has flatlined
And thatās a big one. I donāt measure success by subscribers alone, but itās certainly a strong indicator that the podcast isnāt quite landing with the people I want to reach. Thereās work to be done.
So Iām investing more in the podcast
Thereās nothing unique about some things working and some not working.
Thatās life, thatās building a business, thatās creating anything in the world. Iām not worried about it. I see it as an opportunity to figure out where my attention needs to be.
And so hereās what Iām deciding:
Sharpening the Podcast: Iām about to hire a podcast advisor (yes, thatās a thing!) to help me refine the premise and voice of the show. I want to create something significantly clearer, more valuable, and āmust-listen-ableā. Right now my premise is as broad as can be: On Courage. So thereās lots of room to define who Iām trying to reach and what I promise to deliverāand adapt the podcast accordingly.
Changing the Pace: For nearly 9 months, this has been a weekly endeavor, with the exception of a few weeks off during the winter holidays and earlier this year. Honestly, Iāve loved the challenge of creating at that pace. But as I go through this transition, Iām aiming for a bi-weekly cadence so I can make time for the sharpening.
Iām investing in the podcast because itās become so much more than a creative and business pursuit. I see it as part of my own personal growth.
For most of my professional life, I ran my voice through a filter (āis this a smart thing to say?ā ādo I have enough information?ā āwhat will be said next?ā). And so Iām trying to swing the pendulum in the opposite direction these days, leaning into my own voice at home, in my coaching, in my writing, and with friends and with family.
Not just my conceptual voice, but my actual speaking voice.
Using my voice in podcasting is part of how I help others access their courage, but itās also become part of how I access my own.
All roads lead to purpose
Ultimately, thatās what this is all about: using my voice to help people understand, own, and live who they are.
Thatās what guides my work, and it guides how I try to show up in the world.
Over the past couple weeks, one of my realizations is that I love working with entrepreneurs, soon-to-be entrepreneurs, and could-be entrepreneurs.
People who are willing to bet on themselves, face their uncertainties, and craft their impact on the world. Of course, there are many ways to do this without being an entrepreneur, but Iām noticing that I canāand want toāhelp this community in a unique way.
Essentially, helping them own who they are so they can build the business and life they want. Helping them see that their highest leverage is in their own purpose, voice, and wisdom.
This is where I think Iām heading, and what I believe this podcast is becoming.
Look, I donāt know all the answers yet.
Of course, thereās part of me thatās wanting all this to be perfectly tied together already so you only get the most polished output. Thatās my inner perfectionist that will never fully go away.
But the journey is the journey. And I believe weāre all on some unpolished journey, some kind of powerful becoming right now.
Iām curious: what insight did you get from this?
- Elliot